[ She's still worried what will happen if they're caught killing their so-called CDC comrades without some sort of approval. They haven't earned enough good will. ]
But don't hesitate to kill them if you have to. We'll lose if we do.
We're more valuable to the CDC than they are. [It's simple fact, in his mind.] If they attack us, we defend ourselves. No excuses. [It sounds so easy, to say it.]
[Reiner focuses on her hard at that, suddenly brought into focus. Is she going to be able to do this? Of course she will. She has to. Failure isn't an option.]
It is. Do you want me to contact them? [Hange and Levi, he means.]
[ Dealing with those people would be dangerous, doubly so for Reiner. Still, she wasn't going to try to take away his autonomy just because she's concerned. He remembered now.
[He'll be careful. If he isn't, Annie will be on her own--and that's just something he can't allow. She doesn't need him to survive, they both know that, but he needs to pretend she does at least a little to keep himself going.]
[ Annie isn't sure she's strong enough to stay on her own anymore, and she's not necessarily afraid that she'd lose him to violence. He was powerful. He could defend himself, so long as he just knew to.
But the life of a soldier had a way of seducing him. How he could forget so much and lose himself to it isn't something that she understands, but she can see the appeal. It had to be better. Clear cut, his enemies defined for him. If he didn't remember then it was like he hadn't betrayed all of their comrades from the 104th and murdered uncountable numbers of people.
When compared to her, just her, it doesn't sound like much of a competition. She lets out a soft sigh that has just a hint of a shudder to it. ]
[He knows better than to hug her again. She'd made her feelings known on the matter, and he'd respect them, even if he doesn't necessarily understand.
It doesn't stop him from reaching out to touch her shoulder however briefly. He's there for her, and he'll do his best to stay there. He'd promised her he'd live. But, he's also promised himself that he'll make sure she lives, as well.
If she has nothing else to say, he'll pull back and begin winding his way back to where he'd been.]
[ As he pulls his hand back, she moves her own on impulse. Her fingertips just barely brush his, but then she's jerking her hand back like it burned. No one had ever taught her affection or how to reach out. She'd drilled for years how to fight, how to kill, on just what her mission was, and none of it had ever once included a real connection with anyone else.
The few times she's tried to make them, they've blown up in her face.
Eren, Armin... Bertolt. In a way, she's been left fragile. She can't possibly believe that this won't hurt her in the end as well if she let her guard down. Without addressing her peculiar action at all, she moves to leave more quickly than she might have otherwise. ]
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Date: 2014-07-03 02:52 am (UTC)[ She's still worried what will happen if they're caught killing their so-called CDC comrades without some sort of approval. They haven't earned enough good will. ]
But don't hesitate to kill them if you have to. We'll lose if we do.
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Date: 2014-07-03 04:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-07-06 03:56 pm (UTC)[ She falls quiet a moment, thinking. ]
If we have to deal, I almost want the 104th involved directly. Negotiations might mean nothing from higher ups, I don't know...
[ But Reiner would know. He'd been in their unit, so she trails off. ]
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Date: 2014-07-07 12:48 am (UTC)Eren won't dare cross them. Mikasa will listen to whatever he says.
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Date: 2014-07-07 12:58 am (UTC)[ There's a shiver that runs through her small frame, barely perceptible. After all their history, he was the one that left her the most conflicted.
And, though she'd never tell anyone, the day she'd failed wasn't something she could put from her mind. ]
I don't know. Maybe. It's worth trying.
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Date: 2014-07-07 09:43 pm (UTC)It is. Do you want me to contact them? [Hange and Levi, he means.]
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Date: 2014-07-08 12:42 am (UTC)The sooner we get it out of the way, the better.
[ The longer they wait, the more complicated it was all going to get. ]
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Date: 2014-07-08 01:46 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-07-08 02:22 am (UTC)[ She hesitates, looking down at her boots. ]
Reiner, be careful.
[ Dealing with those people would be dangerous, doubly so for Reiner. Still, she wasn't going to try to take away his autonomy just because she's concerned. He remembered now.
Maybe he wouldn't forget again. ]
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Date: 2014-07-15 02:57 pm (UTC)[He'll be careful. If he isn't, Annie will be on her own--and that's just something he can't allow. She doesn't need him to survive, they both know that, but he needs to pretend she does at least a little to keep himself going.]
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Date: 2014-07-15 09:34 pm (UTC)But the life of a soldier had a way of seducing him. How he could forget so much and lose himself to it isn't something that she understands, but she can see the appeal. It had to be better. Clear cut, his enemies defined for him. If he didn't remember then it was like he hadn't betrayed all of their comrades from the 104th and murdered uncountable numbers of people.
When compared to her, just her, it doesn't sound like much of a competition. She lets out a soft sigh that has just a hint of a shudder to it. ]
Yeah.
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Date: 2014-07-17 04:51 pm (UTC)It doesn't stop him from reaching out to touch her shoulder however briefly. He's there for her, and he'll do his best to stay there. He'd promised her he'd live. But, he's also promised himself that he'll make sure she lives, as well.
If she has nothing else to say, he'll pull back and begin winding his way back to where he'd been.]
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Date: 2014-07-17 11:39 pm (UTC)The few times she's tried to make them, they've blown up in her face.
Eren, Armin... Bertolt. In a way, she's been left fragile. She can't possibly believe that this won't hurt her in the end as well if she let her guard down. Without addressing her peculiar action at all, she moves to leave more quickly than she might have otherwise. ]